Reflections on the Year Past (8/7/08)

OldPhone -- Who are you going to call?

Looking back at some of my writing notes from a year ago...yes, exactly one year ago (8/7/08), today...I had noticed a pattern in what I'd been calling, up until that point, "Kailley's Sayings". To backtrack for a second, Kailley is a character from a novel about 2012 that I've been writing over the past few years. The previous November (11/23/2006), I set the intention to receive some phrase that would constitute quotes from her channeling of messages from a group-entity by the name of Lorkesh. I was at work and every once in awhile, I'd stop and jot down (in long-hand) these snippets. Without getting into too much detail about the story itself, I began grouping these ‘sayings' together until unifying titles...usually 5-7 paragraphs, which I added later. 

At the time I was ‘receiving' these messages, I was usually in boring team meetings which I was required to attend but had very little input or even personal involvement.  What had started out (so I thought) as a cute, little writing exercise to quell my boredom and add to my story, turned out to be far more; the snippets became full-fledged messages. Invariably, I would sit down with some kind of question or observation floating around in my head prior to these meeting and, with a pen and paper handing...and no one the wiser as to what I was actually writing...away I'd go, putting down words without much in the way of thought involved on a personal level. Since I've been working at home, without the artiface of these ‘boring' meetings, my messages have not been coming to me as often. But, I am still writing...never fear...

I was already placing my messages and thoughts online to my own group, One with Spirit Meta-Journal Forum...which was started when I'd moved to Santa Fe, New Mexico, April 2002.  Later, I joined and contributed some of my writing to another online "social media" or networking site which was designed to be spiritual in nature called, "Zaadz.com". Don't go looking for it...you won't find it, it was bought up and supplanted at Gaia.com earlier this year...but that's a different story.  Although the readership of these two lists are relatively small, I received plenty of positive feedback, mostly on a personal basis; it's hard to tell exactly how many people may have read my work up until this point.

So, a year ago, my writing shifted directions. Is it any real wonder that it is shifting again? It was surprising, even to me that I decided, quite by ‘accident', to sit down today after working at home all day, to pull these individual snippets together into their own concise message. It wasn't until I got to the end of the ‘list' of 84 ‘quotes' that I had pasted the message texts which I'd sent out to my group...beginning 8/7/07....exactly one year ago. There are no coincidences, so why does this seem so coincidental? Add to that, it was only 12 days ago that I had written what I consider to be my own pivotal piece, which I entitled, "Journey to Stillpoint".

The reason I had sat down to write that piece was a highly-personal one, which I will no go into at this time. But, suffice it to say, I had been in a state of emotional and psychological upheaval most of the previous week...and, finally, began to understand the purpose ‘behind the madness'. It was very clarifying for me; I write to get concepts out of my head and into the light of my own understanding. This could be a daunting process without the exercise of letting words and ideas come through me to be shared, first with myself, then (generally) with my groups. It's my own form of psycho-analysis. I've come to identify this process as co-creative with my spirit guides, who I often refer to as my ‘people'. Too often, I get caught up in the emotion of the moment, over-think what may...or may not...be going on at that time, and let it all get me into a non-productive mood. The writing process is cathartic for me...and seems to help others as well...as I was recently told by spirit, as well as some of those in the flesh.

For those of you who know what a Twin Flame (TF) is, mine is a perfect mirror to help me understand who I really am and who I am becoming...if I give the process a chance! Of course, when we're in the middle of emotional turmoil , it's difficult to see this for what it is, the Universe delivering to us exactly what we've been asking for all this time. My TF may or may not realize that this is what he's doing at that time either. Nor the reverse, although he says that he enjoys my writing and messages, I would not pretend to be able to read minds, even his. We are each of us in relationships that are continually helping us to grow and change, if we let them. Like my writing, the TW relationship is just one, very specialized version of other kinds of relationships. The hard part is that we're still very much separate in the physical; but, I believe, this is what is best for the current situation to manifest as it was designed (by us) to do all the while.

So, as I pull these ‘older' snippets together, using larger message ‘buckets' which I'm ‘pouring' them into, I will also share them with my groups...you...even if you may have seen them before, it will look very different. Eventually, these will be go into my book, which is tentatively entitled, "Stillpoint and the New 5D Reality." There is much more that could be shared here...there almost always is...but, I feel this is a good place to stop, for now, and tantalize my readers with the knowledge that more is to come!

Special Note: The last ‘snippet'...number 84, as I had put them into a numbered list...was this, "Finally you've reached the "tipping point" where the beings who are the basis of your governance are (at least) aware that these changes are necessary."  Very intriguing, yes? Although I don't know the exact date I wrote that one, chances are good, it was a little over a year ago...